Friday, September 24, 2010

Exhausted...

It is one of those exhausting day again. Woke up feeling really tired. No energy to do anything... no appetite for food. I'm sick of canteen food. The first 3 lessons of the day killed all my remaining passion for the day. I asked myself again, is it worth it to be firm? Some chose to stay in class. I gave up. Brought only 19 out and 6 of them quarrelled. I don't want to scold them anymore. It is already Term 4 Week 2. They are left with 8 weeks to be with one another and they are making themselves and myself unhappy. I surrender. No wonder so many teachers quit or left the school. No wonder our passion for teaching die. No wonder many of our health deteriorated.

I am reminded that I must be a God pleaser and not a men pleaser. So I shall still be firm. But I need to be kind to myself and stop being affected by others choice. It is their choice to decide what they want to do with their life. I choose to be firm. Even if they are not happy with me. I must remind myself that I CAN NEVER PLEASE EVERYONE. Be nice to myself!! 

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